Finally sitting down to update my journal. I haven't had the internet for the last three months so I haven't been able to update any of my accounts on the internet. I can't wait till I am able to be on my own computer and able to go through everthing, also because there is something living in the keyboard I'm using at the moment. o.0 My family life has greatly improve, except for the flu that doesn't want to go away.
My mom had to go the hospital again, this time really showed her that something had to change in her life.
I'm happy to say she has, and doing better than she has in a long time. Me and her are finally able to have the healthy and supportive relationship we both had wanted.
Well that is all I am able to write right now, as have to go as my sister is telling me she is hungry, and that I have to buy her food. Hopefully I'm able to update more tomorrow.

I hope everyone had a nice holiday. My was nothing out of the ordinary, just me, my sister and my mom. My mom and sister when over to a friends house around noon, so I had the house all day to my self which was a nice gift, they also brougth back some home made cheese cake which was also a plus. I'll probably go use my gift cards that I was given in the next few days, hopefully by then my sprained ankle will be healed up.

Well some of my birthday gifts came early, my dad bought me some gift cards and a few movies. I still don't know what I want. I know I will buys some new clothes, because I really do need a new wardrode. Book are a given, but I have no idea what else. My family tells me I have a tendency to buy stuff that I need, and not stuff that I want, which drives my family crazy. Right now it is driving me crazy to, I'm going to look like an idiot in the store, wandering around with a lost look on my face. Good God there is still Christmas too.
I think I'm just going to watch one of the comedys my dad bought me. I think he's right I need a good laugh right now.

Well, our Thanksgiving had a rough start. We had order a Thankgiving turkey meal from Publix with three pies. So me and my dad go to Publix to pick everything up, my dad gets the pies while I wait for our turkey dinner, so the woman comes out not with our meal, but instead a 18 pound turkey, which is of course not what we order. I don't believe anyone look at our order or I don't what happen because clear as day one the paper it says turkey dinner, which I don't see how it could be mistaked for an 18 pound turkey order. Then she tells use that they are old sold out of there dinners, so now we have to buy everything at the last minute, at least we got our pies. So me and my sister get to cook Thankgiving dinner now (well more like my sister cooks and she orders me around while I eat the food, couldn't help it, at least the turkey we bought was amazing) which turned out to be better than execpted, even though my mom was still pissed at Publix. So not a totally disaster. Hope everyone else had a nice Thanksgiving. :)

I haven't posted here in awhile.:) Well my mom just got home from heart surgery yesterday. The surgery went smoothly and her heart is doing fine. I couldn't believe the relief I felt when I called her and was told she was doing well, a weight was lifted off my shoulders. She's in pain but thanfully the painkillers dull most of it. She can't really do alot, which is driving her crazy. I already caught her trying to walk around and clean the house. She said she did enough laying down in the hospital. I'm going to have to keep a real eye on her. But right now I'm just happy that nothing went wrong and that she is back home recovering.

It was my sisters birthday yesterday. She turned 18, I still can't believe it, as everyone told her in our family she will always be the baby of the family. My sister told me the only reason she cared about her birthday was because she got cake, presents, and a day all about her. ;) But she got a good haul this year. My dad bought her a very nice book collection where he accidentally bought the same book twice. Dad couldn't stay to celebrate with us but he brought the cake and a gift card for her. So we all had birthday for breakfast and as soon I was done she drag me shopping so she could spend all of her gift card, which she did. But I'm glad she was happy and able just to forget her troubles at least just for that one day.

Well last week seem to go by in a flash for me. My mom once again had to be taking to the hospital this time because she was having horrible sharp chest pains that was making it hard to breath. The paramedics gave her heart meds on the way there and that is what they kept giving her at the hospital. They believed it was a massive anxiety attack but in truth they had no idea what it really was, so they kept her over night just to make sure she did not go into cardiac arrest, which thankfully she didn't.
The next day they gave her a choice to go home and she took it. But she still has to be an out patient so they can take some test on her heart to make sure she is in no danger. So far she has been doing ok, her blood suger is very low in the morning sometimes but nothing we can't handle.
Now on to our eye doctor appointment which was the 17th. Well my eye sight does suck and I need glasses and eye contacts, which I basically knew already, which is why I went there. But what did surprise and shock the hell out of me was the doctor telling me I was a candidate for glaucoma. At just 19 years old I was not execpting it so early, but as ever one in my family keeps telling me just because I'm a candidate doesn't me I will get it. But my doctor still wants to keep an eye on me to see what happens to me every few months.
My mom now has caterax to but which thankfully can be removed unlike the galucoma which at least we were happy to hear. But after all the problems me and my mom have to face all we can do is face them head on and just take life one step at a time, which is what I'm going to do.

Well he had to leave this morning as my dad find out he was here and threw him out. There was no way in hell my dad was going to let a complete stranger stay in the house with his two teenagers daughters. Me and my sister were relieved and surprised he acted calmly, well I couldn't really call it calmly, as my dads temper can be like a ticking time bomb when it comes to his girls. So he made sured he left and wasn't coming back. I'm just happy nothing violent happen. Because as soon as my dad drop the guy off at a store he got arrested for assaulting someone. I'm just thankful that he left. My mother was angry at first but she does realize that it was for the best and that he needs more help, help that she could not give him as she has mental and physical problems of her own that she needs to take care now. She knows it was a big mistake to bring him here even though her heart was in the right place, and thankful that I was truthful to her even if she doesn't like what she hears.
So now I can relax and take care of business. I'm sorry but there was no way I could let a suicidal former drug addict stay at my mothers house and lock himself in the bathroom doing god knows what. My family comes first. Last but not least I need to thank my wonderful LJ flist who have to see my rants and frustration and always have a kind word to say or some good advice which I am always thankful for. Thanks again. :)

So my long hiatus from the internet has finally ended. Now I have over a month of entries and what not to look over, but thankfully I'm over half way done already. A lot has happen during this time. Another job fell through, my mom had to be hospitalized again and her diabetes has infected her thyroid to the point that it hardly works anymore. But during my hiatus from the internet I got in some good reading time, I finally was able to find Inkheart which I enjoyed greatly and finished in less than a day, but right now I'm broke so I have to wait to buy the sequel.
But right now I'm stressed the hell out. My mom befriended this 20 year old kid from when she was in the hospital and when he got out the hospital told him he could stay with us for a while. Well all things consider I was less then thrilled with this idea, bringing home a almost complete stranger, who she has only know a few days, and I was right because he has only been here two and a half days and it is a disaster. I love her to death but one of her biggest problems is acting before thinking ever thing over which is why I can't leave her. But at least she is finally starting to realize her problems and trying to work them out, she wants to go back to the hospital for further help. Which is one step forward. Well at least I have the new episode of True Blood to look forward to tonight. Seems I might have found a new tv show to get into. Sorry for my ranting but it helps to get everything out.

 They did call me back on saturday and said I got the job. Today I did training and woah was it exhausting and at one point a little overwhelmed because I couldn't get the hang of something. Well it was only my first day, hopefully I will get the hang of it by the end of the week.  So back to work tomorrow at ten.

It's probably the only thing I have to say about the Doctor Who season finale.   
That just absolutely killed it for me. Time to find something new to obsess about.

I found a pair for me and my sister for only 10$ bucks! They had all this other brand name clothes cheap also so I figure when I have more money go back and get as much as I can. :) Since sales like these come once in a blue moon. That job called me back so maybe I might actually have gotten it, guess I will see in the next day or so.  God I'm absolutely terrified of todays Doctor Who finale!! I have no idea what to expect. I'm afraid RTD will break my heart into a millon pieces.

Well last night that job I applied for finally called me back for a second interview. I nearly gave up on them as I started apply else where but it seems that didn't forget me. So off I go again for another job interview, I really hate these things. Which doesn't help is my nerves are on edge again and I feel like throwing up. My hopes are not really high right now.
Also I woke up this morning to find a whole in our couch which our puppy decided to make in the middle on the night. She hasn't chewed on anything she wasn't suppose to for a while but it seems she got angry at us and decided to get back at us. Now we have to figure out what to do! :}

 It was one hell of a roller coaster ride for me last week hopeful this week is a little calmer.  My mom wasn't feeling so doctor told her to go to hospital well that was a disaster there was nothing terrible wrong with her and we found that her diabetes finally stable but we didn't have the most kindest people working that day in the hospital.  
It doesn't seem to want to storming here and right now in Florida it's just hot and wet. Almost everytime I step outside I feel like I'm frying to death. On to some good news it seem like our landlord is finally going to come in and start fixing the place it would be nice to have our stove and dishwater to start working again. Last but least I'm still fixated on Doctor Who. I can't seem to stop watching the episode especially that scene even though my heart soars and than breaks into a million pieces. I must be a glutton for punishment. I think I will start to watch another dorama so I can keep my sanity till this saturday.

 Thank goodness the diabetes hasn't infected her eyes and the glaucoma hasn't got any worse either. So thank God for small favors. Now on to other news. I seem be on a Johnny Depp watching marathon. I forgot what a mesmerizing actor he was. I finally watch Corpse Bride yesterday since we owned it for I don't know how long and since I was bored I deicide to pop it in the DVD player. It was fun film and I always enjoyed Tim Burtons twisted fairy tales. It was a beautiful movie to look at, it's to bad stop animation is a dying art, it's like nothing else. 

So after I deicide to look up Sweeny Todd and I began to watch it. This movie reminded me why he was my favorite actor. The moment he apper on screen he just drew me in and wouldn't let go. He shows such intense emotion in the film. I really need the finish watching it today that and another film. That and I alway want to watch Turn Left again since I'm still on high from it and maybe do a picspam of it since I don't think my review was that coherent since I wrote at 12am going on 1am.

Looks like it might have finally started to stop storming outside. We've had tornadoes rip through the county today but it doesn't look like much damage was done just alot of heavy rain and wind. I'm slowly getting want I need done at a slow pace, I've just felt lazy the last few days because of the rain. I love the rain it soothes me but it also puts me to sleep!  An electrician came to our house and did something to our electricity because now a quarter of our home now has no electricity. Of course my room is part of the house with no electricity and also our stove so we've been cooking everything in our mirowave. My nerves are also on edge because my mom went to her primary doctor to see how her blood tests and came home with bad news. 
It seems her diabetes have attack her thyroid and her nerve endings in her legs. The doctor gave her stronger blood pressure medicine and also meds for legs. She has been able to walk better because of the and he also gave some pain pills for the pain. But it's the thyroid problem that has me scared since it's not working properly so she to take some more tests to see what to do. Well we all have to wait to see what happens next and face it when it comes.

Well I called the job back like I was suppose to and now I have an interview at 1pm today. Oh I really hope I get it! I'm not as nervous as I thought I would be. Maybe i'm just trying not to get my hopes up in case they don't hire me.